Wasted emotions...

As I think I've mentioned before, hope is a wasted emotion. I just can't bring myself to see the point in getting yourself all psyched about something, only to get disappointed later on. And yet, this false hope continues to plague me. Why can't I just let this go? I know what the turnout will be, but I can't stop thinking that maybe...just maybe...
But, no. It won't. It didn't then, so why should it now? It won't happen now, so it won't happen in the future.
Aaaagh!!!! I. Hate. False. Hope.

Da da dadah!

Hoorah!
Three months!
I'm dead tired and it hurts to move, but I will celebrate!
I have reached my third month. FINALLY.

So, yea..that was all. :)

Band Camp

So this one time at band camp...
Haha just kidding. Band camp starts tomorrow, making today may last official day of summer. Sigh.
Truth be told, I'm actually excited for camp to start. I'm ready to learn the drill and flag routine. Granted, I'm not excited for the heat, but I'm excited for the show. :)

Three days :)

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Again, there is the frustrated sound. I can't wait to escape. I feel trapped in this house. My grandparents are insane. I feel insane. I just want to leave this state and start over somewhere else. But that will have to wait until after college. Sigh.

Okay, I'm done venting. All better :)

Reinstating the Countdown

Sound the trumpets! Gather the troops!
I'm reinstating the official countdown.
In ten days, I will be back to where I was before I got stupid. In ten days, I will once again be at a victorious three single months! Since it's such a special occasion, I will not be buying a cookie, but making a batch from scratch. :)
And after eating one or two of those, I'm giving the rest to my church's VBS in apology for not being able to work this year. I generally work in the art room with the kids, but band camp is getting in the way. Sigh. Oh well. :)

Oh my...

I'm in trouble...I went to church camp last week and, even though I reminded myself repeatedly that I do NOT need a relationship, I met someone. But, he lives four and a half hours away...

In other news, I celebrated two months a few weeks ago. I had cookies made from scratch and they were DELICIOUS!

Also, I have been up all night. I witnessed a beautiful sunrise. :)

And, I'm leaving again tomorrow to go on vacation with my best friend. I'm excited :D

AND, my cousin came home. I haven't seen him since last October and he's a Marine. I have a slight obsession with Marines. I'm a happy girl :D :D :D

Happy Fourth of July! :D