You learn something every day..

Today I was talking to my best friend about how to get rid of this guy I met. She suggested just try acting really really immature or to just tell him it wouldn't work. I jokingly said that maybe I could just go ahead and get a boyfriend. She looked at me and said, "In all sincerity, which do you really think is more likely??"

I didn't think it'd gotten that bad. I didn't think I'd reached the point where even my best friend believed the idea of me having a boyfriend is absurd enough to make it unlikely.

I wanna know why that is? What makes it so unlikely? Why is it absurd?

We can't all find someone in a school of sufficient suckishness.

So you should definitely...

Check out my friends new blog. I was telling my best friend about my blog and she decided to make her own. Basically hers is about the struggles we all face in high school, especially if you don't give in to peer pressure. Anyway, it's new and cool and you should check it out! :D

stayingvirgin-highschool.blogspot.com

In other news... I almost burned my house down this afternoon. For the third time. How, you ask? Well I decided to boil some eggs and went to watch tv while I waited. Now, I completely forgot those eggs after about two minutes. I went back to my room and could soon smell smoke. I went to the kitchen and guess what. The eggs had exploded. Yea... Have you ever tried to scrub burned egg out of a pot? It's not a joyful experience.
I'm beginning to see that maybe I shouldn't cook anymore...

So it's been a while...

I have not posted at all this past week, but I promise I have good reason. Spring break. Enough said. But I'm back now.

Also I know I promised to have my poems posted on the page I put up fr them, but, alas, I am lazy.

I would like to say that last Saturday I got my cookie for staying single for two months, and...it was delicious.

And now I'm leaving to watch the Harry Potter marathon on ABC Family. Adios! :)

Sooo...

I learned something important today...I am always right. Don't take that to mean I'm conceited, because I'm not. Just hear me out:

You know how I posted last Thursday about the guy I like? And how he said he like me back? Well, earlier this week, I started doubting it. Which is what I always do. I always overthink the situation and stop believing it. And it usually turns out that I'm right. Anyway, I started doubting that he liked me, and...today my best friend told me that he changed his mind. He doesn't like me anymore. Once again, my pessimistic paranoia has proven me right.


Two days. :(

Hope...

So I don't have much to say, other than hope is a waste of emotion. It sets us up for disappointment. Which sucks. That is all.

Three more days. :/

Climbing.

I'm in the first stages of climbing out of my "life sucks" hole. I'm still so so tired, but I'm not as death-like. Which is good. :/

Four days. :(

Have you ever...

Have you ever thought about giving up? Just letting everything go? No more hope, no more worries, no more love, no more anything. Just taking whatever life throws at you. Maybe that would make everything more bearable. I mean...you would never worry about whether or not the guy you like is interested in you. Or even if he is, you wouldn't worry about him doing anything about it. In fact, there wouldn't be any need to even think about it, because you wouldn't like anyone anyway. It's all pointless anyway. Sooner or later, all good things must come to an end.
I'm pondering giving up. It just feels right. I'm tired. Tired of thinking. Tired of being. Tired of living. Tired of liking. Tired of loving. Tired of hurting. Tired of pretending. I just want to let everything go. I don't want to fake any more smiles. From now on, I'm done.

"Sometimes giving up isn't showing weakness; Sometimes it's being strong enough to walk away." -Someone wise

Six more days. :/

Countdown:)

So last year I dated this guy(the ex who I keep havin drama with). He dumped me(very rudely) on April 5. That summer, I spent almost every waking minute with my best friend and her boyfriend. So, in order to feel better about my singlness, I started to joke about it and even came up with an imaginary boyfriend, as part of the joke(his name is Imaginary-Hypothetical-If, but we shortened it to Rreynoldo). At the end of the summer vacation, I counted back the months to the break-up. Five months. I decided then to make being single a fun experience. So I decided that, for every month of my being single I would get a big cookie. Like how couples celebrate moths of dating, I decided to celebrate months of singlness. For every month, I get a cookie. Every half year, I get a cupcake. Every year, I get a cake and small party. If I get to three years, I get a wedding cake and huge bash. Five years gets me a pony.
Anyway, on the day before my fifth month, that same ex and I got back together. It lasted two and a half months, then it ended. I had another relationship, which lsted a week. So on January 13, I got to start getting big cooies again.
On March 13, I get my second. So, this long-winded explanation was all for me to say that I wil be starting a countdown to said cookie.

Seven more days. :)

You don't have to read this one...

So this whole entry is basically me being super excited for a typical girl reason. I just found out that the guy I like, likes me back. The only problem is that he doesn't want to date right now. (And also that neither of us has actually told the other about it; we found out through a friend.) But, I can see where he's coming from. His last relationship didn't end too well, so I can see why he wouldn't want to date. But, at the same time... (and I feel selfish for this) I am ready to go out with him. I finally settled all the drama with my ex and I'm SOO ready to move on. So now I'm just waiting... :( :/ :) :D